Hello again everyone! I've really been missing blogging so I'm going to be attempting to post a bit more often. In about a week's time I'll be through with exams; I have a LOT of Etsy purchases to share with you all (I ensured that I would have a steady stream of parcels arriving to keep my spirits up while studying) and I finally bought a new camera so I can do take lots more outfit shots!
I'd like to thank each and every one of you for your positive and supportive comments on my last entry. I've been going back to read them every so often when I feel in need of a bit of extra motivation; it's really helped me to start talking about my depression and anxiety openly and in turn being reassured that people won't treat me any differently or think less of me. I haven't really started to feel much different yet, but I've been referred to a psychologist and will be starting that part of my treatment soon. Some days I've struggled with the thought that the antidepressants are only making me numb to all emotions, rather than dealing with the sadness, and there have been a lot of side effects in the adjustment period (nausea, lack of appetite and sleep, feeling tired and foggy most of the time, bizarre and vivid nightmares) - however, I'm determined to at least stick it out for a few more months to see if any change occurs.
The new house that I've moved to is in a really peaceful location - it feels like we are living in the country (even though we only moved about 5 streets away from our old house!) There are horses, a wide variety of birds, a blue tongue lizard that I feed from time to time, and absolutely adorable bunnies everywhere (they are feral and considered a pest in Australia, but gosh-darn it they are too cute to stay mad at for long!) However, the other night I discovered a downside to living closer to nature. I was reaching for something under my bed and noticed a spider web, so got the insect spray and gave it a blast. When the inhabitant of said web ran out and flopped about my feet I noticed in horror that it had a tell-tale, red hourglass shaped stripe down its back. Meaning, of course, that a redback, one of the deadliest spiders in Australia had been living under my bed (brb moving to a country where the animals are less deadly. I mean, I love you Australia but there is a reason tourists are scared to come here!)
Of course, finding a deadly insect inches from where you sleep is not great for those with anxiety issues (or anybody, I'm sure!) so I was up till about 3am vacuuming every corner of my room and shaking out my clothes 'just in case'. While I was going through all my stuff I rediscovered some items I had purchased for a giveaway months ago and completely forgotten about (don't worry, they were completely sealed in a plastic bag so they're safe) - that means that pretty soon it will be giveaway time! I'd love to get these items to a new home by Christmas so keep your eyes peeled! Thanks again to everybody for their patience and support, I really have missed this!
Outfit: Last days of summer
3 weeks ago